Just when you think you have it all under control

I would like to pass a message along to all of my friends out here in the internet world, I am still here. I thought I had everything under control and everything crashed again.

I will tell you this, I believe that we are all here for a purpose and it is not to just survive. I am trying to go through some real tough things right now and I know that if I open up a little more, I will have a little more support in my life. It's hard. I have no idea who to trust anymore (besides my husband). I can't even tell you all the things that are going on in my life, because of privacy issues. Just please know that I appreciate the prayers, messages and phone calls.

On a good note, I am starting college on August 29th. I was accepted into DeVry University, into an exclusive program for Gaming and Simulation Programming. I tried very hard to get into this program, and actually had to take a pre-Calculus math test. Seeing as I had never taken any math class above Geometry, I had to buy Pre-Calculus for Dummies (awesome book if anyone needs to borrow it). But I studied hard and passed the test. I am nervous to go back to college and excited all at the same time..

I haven't crafted much lately. Or even done much Photography. My heart just hasn't been in it. The last photo shoot I did, I wasn't impressed with what I captured and decided to stop for a bit and try again later. I am going to redo the shoot, but I just need to be able to breathe again. I am in some pretty heavy counseling to help with some of the issues in our lives and would like to send out my thanks to all those that care.

Summer is coming

Not that you can guess it by the weather, but summer is coming.

I am working on a few things that will be posted in the next 2 days. If I set a time limit, it is more likely to happen, right?

I have my Father's Day present lined up for my Grandfather. Just need to work on helping the kids get something for their Dad.

And planning some fun for the summer.

Does it sound like I am back? Kinda. But I am trying hard.

I'm doing it

I took some pictures.

I actually made some Mother's Day Cards and 1 Birthday Card.

I even made a bejeweled ring.

I have had several job interviews, but no job offers. I am sending my resume out several times a day. I am trying hard. I know it will happen when it is suppose. I guess you can say that I can believe a little bit more each day. I am beginning to have a bit more faith in myself.

Still alive

I am still here.

The earth is still moving.

So much has happened in our world recently.
Natural disasters-what insurances term of "Acts of God" (even though He is suppose to be kept separate from State and Church) wars (Lybia, Osama bin Laden, we won't even bring up the conspiracy theorists) and all of the deaths and suicides lately. There are so many happening lately. I have seen many teenagers take their lives, or OD, Adults in their 30's dying and leaving behind small children and devastated spouses/parents. There is a lot of pain and suffering going on right now. It's really hard to watch. I don't know if it is more prevalent now, or if you just notice it more because of the social networks (Facebook, emails, blogs, etc).

I am here. I haven't fallen. I am coming back. I can feel it.

Can you?